Stop stalling, make a name for yourself.

unicorn kid!! <3

2009-06-26T21:15:41Z

itsamybtw @ 2009-06-24T21:21:00

2009-06-24T20:22:42Z

And looking back -

2008-12-14T22:29:52Z

Aww at the post mentioning 3style :') I like how I didn't even know what an amazing boy I would meet there.

:D

Change will come.

2008-12-14T22:28:13Z

I will never believe in anything again.

I miss this!
I tried using wordpress - it's not going well - i'm going to try and upload art and stuff on it?
Oh well.

I don't update this ever ever ever!
I should.

I couldn't see Ell all weekend.

Today we went to Enfield and we went past this place called Christmas Wonderland
and there were two santas at the entrance
and as we drove past I rolled down the windows and screamed 'SANTA!'
and they started screaming and waving :') brilliance.

I worked all of yesterday and had to wear a santa hat all day - that's when you know it's nearly christmas. 11 days. Ooh!

I miss and adore everyone, still. D:

I want things to be okay.

Fall Out Boy!

2008-12-03T13:14:00Z

</p>

lol oops

2008-09-14T20:16:25Z

I haven't been writing here and tbh i really can't be fucked!
Started at John Warner 6th form, love it there at the minute, I adore the friends I've made and I also miss my turnford peeps sosososoooo much, but I'll see them often enough I reckon. Gotta go to norwich to make a speech on thursday, fuck knows how I'm gonna manage to wake up at 5.30 to catch a train.
Got so much work already and only been at school a week and a bit, I'm sure I'll survive. Got work monday and sunday.

Hmmmmmmmm bored already x

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-23T00:06:00

2008-07-22T23:06:24Z

This
is
bad
very very bad.
Why do i always do this?
uselessuselessuseless
'you had help'

esteban.

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-20T00:10:00

2008-07-19T23:29:09Z

Ahaha I cannot be bothered rn D: But today was actually so good :') it was another day when we saw Ciara/Alfie/Jason/Katie and played about with Jason's camera. We visited the hostel and got told to go away cause we didn't have a room, so when the man wasn't looking we all ran through and played checkers on the table outside, then I told a german boy I loved him in german and he was like JA JA JA <3 And then we all stood by the gate thingy in Lea Valley and just kept saying words to make eachother laugh, there were some ridiculous words coming up and I laughed at nearly every single one, I am so easily amused ahaha
Me and Jason are starting a 'train' and it's gonna be amazing, join it ;D We're gonna take pictures for it on monday...;)
Saw Sam again on weds, had quite a good chat although I couldn't sleep cause I had to go my bro's assembly at 9 the next morning which was so cute aha, bunch of 10 yr olds acting and stuff :') then later I met Stuart and we went into school and shit I just remembered I've gotta call the coach company to see if they've still got my prom picture :/ well done me. Ah well. I had to start my art for john warner and mum is already saying I'm useless and stuff and yest. she said she doesn't know why I'm bothering to go 6th form. Gravyyyy. I am currently obsessed with Step up 2 and the soundtrack omg. It's so good. What is it with me and dance films? I miss dirty dancing 2 actually D:

This is actually such an all over the place blog ahaha but I've just noticed how uptight I've been lately. Or maybe I'm less relaxed and I'm noticing how people say things better, and it's just sarcastic little comments getting on my nerves and I used to think I loved sarcasm and I just decided it's just plain rude and I'm gonna try my best not to be cause it makes you feel like shit. And now I know why everyone hates me for it aha. It's just narky little comments that I'm pretty sure I have said/still do and I REALLY hate it aha. Like I don't mind playful sarcasm, i dunno how to explain it, ah well. :/ i know what i mean.
I was thinking the other day about how kissing used to get called 'blagging' :') 'DID YOU BLAG HIM?' ahah what a well used phrase when I was in like year 7/8 and I used to pick up all sorts of other words like this from Chaz.

Anyway it's 3style tomorrow, and for those that don't know it's like an all day free gig thing and this yr it's in st albans and me rach lucy are going together so I'm expecting it to be amaaaaaaaazing, :D should put me in a better mood. Then obv monday going back up they abbey wit my baby ciara.
I've been such a chav lately it's unbelievable D: Oh, and I missed Anna. :')

ttfn xo

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-16T01:08:00

2008-07-16T00:18:27Z

yes pls

Jason got me started because it's 1am and we're bored, so he asked who my top 5 list of celebs would be if I could do anything I liked with them. Mine was, naturally, Brendon Urie, Ed Westwick, Leon Jackson, Mitch Hewer and Mark Ronson. Jason's was Sarah J Parker, Kat Von D, Audrey Kitching and Pretty Tied Up, he couldn't think of a fifth. And because I'm so bored I searched for Mitch pictures...unf...and I've been looking at Audrey Kitching pictures in envy all night. ¬.¬
Did absolutely fuck all today and should really go to sleep as I'm going to Stortford tomorrow to see Sam. But I won't be able to sleep 'cause it's so awfully humid so I won't even try.
Isn't funny the way people act when you say something and they take it really offensively but they don't like confrontation so nothing really happens and if anything more gets said on the matter everyone starts being all ridiculously nice about it and I absolutely despise it when that happens. People act like they adore you one minute and then act like this the next, and it annoys me, especially if the thing you said wasn't actually offensive at all.
And doesn't it annoy you that people spill out their whole entire private lives on here, and don't even give two shits, they're just like LALALA I CUT AND THROW UP AND SHIT AND IT DOESN'T MATTER. But obviously it does, but either it's not actually true or they're only looking for attention. Which is quite sad, in a way, that they resort to the internet to get the attention they need.

I should really write more about my thoughts in these things, it's fun. :')

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-15T00:29:00

2008-07-14T23:58:21Z

Today was so fun lololol. Me and Ciara went and met Jack/Alfie/Jason and Jason got out his proffessional (and sexy) camera and we had lots of fun with it.

We took something like 300 photos but there are only about 10% of that here <3

I look like such a tard :D

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-14T00:50:00

2008-07-13T23:59:21Z

ungh

BRENDON STOP LOOKING LIKE CHUCK OMG
fapfapfap.

Ok I'm done. Buried the hamster today. I went to sleep at like 7 and literally just woke up and now can't sleep. FFS.

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-12T19:37:00

2008-07-12T18:38:26Z

does somebody want to buy me adobe after effects?
just so I could do this?
tyvm.

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-12T19:18:00

2008-07-12T18:22:29Z

OMGGG I just found out who Serena killed and basically all that happens in Thursday's episode. But please, Ed and Chase, do me.

Especially if you wear that scarfffff. ;)

Went out to Waltham X and Costco today. We were looking at duck for dinner and some man came up to us and was like 'IT'S TASTY ;D' and I loled for ages afterwards.

xo

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-11T14:08:00

2008-07-11T13:08:34Z

I still eat too many biscuits with my tea.

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-10T12:40:00

2008-07-10T11:43:08Z

Getting annoyed at people posting pictures purely because you can see cleavage and they know boys will comment it.
Yesterday was bad. M+D just had a huge go at me for no obvious reason, so I just left. Saw Tom for 5 mins before he went to meet his mum, and he went on hols this morning :( Then I went to Stuart's house and watched Stardust and his PATD videos, which made me more jealous, bless him. Oh well.

Eleanor Rigby

2008-07-08T21:53:35Z

Coming home again
To see a girl that's prettier than a diamond in the sun
Oh what fun!
I wonder if she's been naked in her room since i've been gone
I wonder if she's said to them as she said to me before

However much you use me baby, come on use me more
However much you use me baby, come on use me more

Getting off the train
To see a girl that's sweeter than an apple picked from Adam's tree
Oh glory be!
And I wonder if she's been pressed against an unfamiliar wall
And said to all those men as she said to me before

However much you want me, I swear i'll make you want me more
However much you want me, I swear i'll make you want me more and more and more and more

La-la-la, la la la la

Arriving at the door
Just to be told that the girl i'm missing has been in London for a while
No more northern skies for her
They say she's left a letter up the stair for everyone
It's pinned against her bedroom door for all the world to see and she says

However much I love you, you will always love me more
However much I love you, you will always love me more
And I guess it's true
However much she loves me I will always love her more

La-la-la la la la la

I'll love you more and more, I'll love you more
I'll love you more and more, I'll love you more
I'll love you more and more, I'll love you more
I'll love you more and more, I'll love you more and more and more....

I keep listening to The Beatles, but I put my ipod on shuffle because they're too relaxing to write to, and I keep discovering sexy songs I forgot I had.<3 Like Adele just came on, and I love it. Yesterday met up with Stuart and Tom and took pictures for photography of my journey ;) proud of quite a few! And then we explored my itunes and found some gems, like scottish soldier. And then Laurie came round and we danced for her, and had lots of fun til there was only Laurie left. Then we stayed up til ridiculous hours watching Glasto footage <3 I adore Panic. Speaking of them, they're playing tonight at the Astoria, and Stuart's there and I'm not :( it's so wrong. But I'm skint so I couldn't go. Ffs. I'm making him video certain songs for me though, so it's alright.
Tom goes on holiday thursday :( so I won't see him for two weeks, and I'm jealous cause it's still a month or so before me and Laurie are going to Turkey. D:

Everyone's angry tonight! I'm really relaxed, so whatever. ;)

xo

:)

2008-07-06T19:30:30Z

Brogan slept over thursday, we had some Malibu and Coke/Lemonade, had a laugh, watched Gossip Girl (how GOOD was that episode) and played about with singstar. Met up with Franco friday, saw Hancock, went to his and played guitar hero and then he made me watch the bit in I am Legend where the dog dies :( and I just got abused all day ;) then went up the abbey, which was pretty boring, but you know. Dunno if I'll bother going up there on a friday for a couple of weeks :). Went shopping on Saturday in Harlow, got loadssssssss of new stuff, but now I have loads of holiday clothes ahah...brilliant. Then Tom came over. And we watched OMG DOCTOR WHO <3 I'm sooo glad David isn't leaving. And tbh, I wouldn't mind if there were two Doctors. Laurie Tom and I decided we'd have our own party seeing as we weren't invited to a certain someone's ¬.¬ Today Laurie's mum came over to talk about Turkey with my parents, I'm soooo excited :)

Doesn't it annoy you when people ask you to picture comment them? I mean, if I WANTED to picture comment you, I would have already or when you'd posted a 'pc4pc' bulletin, it's ridiculous. Picture comments are pretty much what people's lives revolve around to make them look popular, and it just fucks me off.

ALRIGHTTTTTT
xo

itsamybtw @ 2008-07-02T18:38:00

2008-07-02T17:47:28Z

It was the rest of Turnford's induction today and it did nothing for me. I wanted to see what my lessons were like so I could compare it to John Warner's, but no, we had to do an 'Apprentice' come 'Dragon's Den' type task where we had to design a restaurant. They said it would improve our skills. Yes, but what has it got to do with the subjects I want to do? They proved nothing to me at all so I WILL be going to JW in September. But I'll be collecting my free laptop and seeing how long it takes Turnford to realize it's gone ;). Just for my own amusement.
I've been in such awful moods lately and I've just been snapping at everyone, I think it's because I'm tired but I still don't like it. I'm so hot as well, the weather suddenly got nice again this evening and I'm in a jumper. I really need to text Brogan back. I'm such a procastinator.

And people say that I'm being lazy, I've got the dreams but don't know where to go. I think if I could choose to live here at the Station, I would.

I'm lazy

2008-07-01T16:03:11Z

It always takes me days to write again.

So little to say but so much time,
despite my empty mouth the words are in my mind.
Please wear the face, the one where you smile,
because you lighten up my heart when I start to cry.

Forgive me first love, but I’m tired.
I need to get away to feel again.
Try to understand why, don’t get so close to change my mind.
Please wipe that look out of your eyes, it’s bribing me to doubt myself;
simply, it’s tiring.

This love has dried up and stayed behind,
and if I stay I’ll be alive,
then choke on words I’d always hide.
Excuse me first love, but we’re through.
I need to taste the kiss from someone new.

Forgive me first love, but I’m too tired.
I’m bored to say the least and I, I lack desire.
Forgive me first love.

The Abbey and Sam's on friday was good, I went up the Abbey and met Sam and Louis at McDonald's, then we went and knocked for Jack and then Jason, and Katie was there but then Jason said he'd call us in half hour so we went back to Louis' for a bit, and tesco, etcetcetc. Louis' mum is so funny haha, bless her :'). I stayed over Sam's and we had chinese and Barcadi and some huge bitching session, I swear it's all I do when I'm with her. I'm gonna have to go up and see her more, miss her so much! Anyway, BBQ for the Turkey lot that afternoon, there was so much food it was unbelievable and the Hawkins bought Wii Fit round so we got to use that and it was SO GOOD.
Yesterday was my John Warner induction day, and luckily the Brox girls were there already so I didn't have to just stand by myself. It was awful, we just got looked at and asked which school we were from even though most kids were nice, it got quite patronizing when the girls started waving at us like we were 5. We even got given homework :|. And aha, at lunch there was free cake and curry, interesting combination. We explored a bit and I just got stared at by a certain someone's group of friends, I was like, what the actual fuck do you want, so we went and explored the sports center. After lunch there was 'activities' and typically I got physical and we played bench ball and I completely failed ahaha. >< So I'm not completely sure about going there anymore but still :/ although today was the first day of Turnford's induction. Oh my god it was awful, my form is ridiculous, so I asked to get moved, and I was allowed into Rach's and Lucy's form. It was a lot of fun after that, but Cowgill pissed me off when he had a go at me for 'not letting others have a go' so I went and sat at the side and he had another go at me for not participating. Ergh! Idiot man. Then we had raft racing, and me and Rach were a bit :/ at first and then we just went ahead and did it and it was so fun, I'm glad we took part, we got thrown in by Michael and Tom -.-

And it's like the hottest day of the year and I've got a tan, so I'm not complaining. Although I am a bit pink. ;)

xo

aim

2008-06-26T22:15:02Z

I forgot to add; I've got aim now.

amyxlouisa

xo

london

2008-06-26T22:12:07Z

I fell asleep last night.
But I woke up too late.
And everything I loved.
I began to hate.
I know I sound repetitive,
Cause I’m repeating myself,
And I’m competitive,
I want you all by yourself.
And that alone is just the problem,
I’ve got these woes,
And I just can’t solve them.
If I could gather up the nerve,
I’d put my feelings into words,
And if I weren’t so young, or stupid, or restless,
I might be able to just soon forget this.
Just forget this.
Please just forget me,
When I’m out all alone on the east coast.
And please don’t forgive me,
When you’re home all alone and you need me most.
Oh if I only had the heart,
To find out exactly who you are,
You know I’d try now.
But it’s just fine,
No you can’t save me,
It’s no fault but mine,
Please just blame me.
If I could gather up the nerve,
I’d put my feelings into words,
And if I weren’t so young, or stupid, or restless,
I might be able to just soon forget this.
Just forget this.
If I only had the heart, the nerve, the words, you’d think by now I would have learned.

We went to London for Michael's bday today. Happy birthday! We went to Camden because I haven't been in 6 months+. We found a vintage bit and I fell in love, there was stuff from like the 20s, 50s, all of it! I loved it but the boys hated it, so we explored and just looked in random shops and stuff. Then we went to Leicester Sq. and the premiere for Kung Fu Panda or whatev it is was getting set up, then we went to the Trocadero centre and went on the bumper cars and played something that I will not put here, as it is quite offensive. But it involved bumping into certain people. Anyway, then we played racing and I really could not be bothered but Michael made us and I was 1st for ages then some bastard killed me and I came 5th ¬.¬. Can't remember much else, not much else was important, other than our C2C song lyrics.
We were hoping for Westminster
All we found was Warren Street
We must talk about Embankment
We are on the Northern Line.
Pretty good to be honest. :):):) Anyway I've got a raging headache and I shouldn't be on as I'm off to Ferrett's tomorrow, miss that girl so much! <3 xo

prom and shit

2008-06-24T13:46:17Z

I just realized I haven't written in about 6 days, so I'm gonna have to now in case I forget everything.

Friday - Went to Stuart's for a film day. It was me, Stuart, Rach, Laurie, Dan and Michael, and it took us ages to decide on which film to watch, and me and Rach wanted to watch Ladies in Lavender or whatever the hell it's called, because it looked so amusing, two old ladies fall in love with this young man or something. Anyway, Stuart didn't let us so we made them watch Moulin Rouge instead and Michael said it was a very 'me' film, I was like cheers Michael. :) And then we had pizza and this really nice pasta stuff, Stuart's mum is amazing, and then we sat down and watched Pulp Fiction. And got scared over the bit where there's a gimp and the Marsellus gets bum raped :(:(:( then I went and got my nails done...:D

Saturday - PROM DAY! And I had an interview with Spurs in the mornin and they said I got the job but I needed my NI number but it's not here yet. Fuckin ell. Anyway, then I went and got my hair done at Kelly's and it took THREE HOURS I was like Jesus Christ :( but it looked so good at the end so I was pleased, then I got ready and shit and Lucy and Adam arrived and we had garden photos and then Stuart and his family and my neighbours all arrived, and we had even more pictures taken ^.^ then we went to the school and everyone looked amazing, apart from a few...who looked either ridiculous or slutty. And a couple of people in the same dress ;D And we had to have individual pics taken, and the coach's didn't arrive until like 6.30 which was an hour late. I sat next to Lucy on the coach and we all just sang songs I think, how amusing. Anyway, we had to walk from the coach to the boat and off we went, everyone just explored and I went round with a bowl of peanuts and I think everyone loved me for it. Then some girl fainted, Rebecca? and anyway they couldn't wake her up so some boat ambulance had to come and we had to stop to drop her off. Oh, and a teacher fell down these awfully thin stairs, I can't really blame her. And then my toenail got ripped off cause I couldn't stand wearing my shoes so I took them off, and then Michael trod on my foot and it was horrid D: then like a billion other people fainted and I couldn't do much and I left my picture of me and Stuart on the coach and I couldn't be bothered to go to the after party and apparently it was shit and boring anyway. Oh, and a couple got engaged! :D That evening Jack called me and was like OH YOU WON'T STOP COMING TO THE ABBEY NOW JAYDEN'S LEFT WILL YOU? I was like no Jack, bless you :)

Sunday - I met up with Brogan and Beth over Brookfield, although their bus didn't come for ages so it wasn't until 3 that we met up. Then we went and bought about a million packets of crisps and ate most of them, haha. Then we decided to go swimming at Beth's so we went back to mine to get my bikini and then Lonnie gave us a lift to Beth's cause she lives in Brox. Anyway, we got there and her house is giant, and she had an indoor pool and a sauna and a 'jacuzzi' and her parents were out on their boat and she had a games room with a big screen for films and god knows what else, but her house was so nice! We fucked around in the pool for a while and then we got in the jacuzzi and made foam with bubbles hahah, that was the best part. Then Beth made us some pasta and Brogan put mayo on it and it was lovelyyyyy. That was a nice day ^.^

The rest of this week I've not done much, yesterday I met up with Laurie and we went to meet Jason and Jack and then we just walked and sat and walked and sat and ate oreos and stuff, and we talked about a load of shit and it was a nice day :)

Boring boring boring today. And I got my LG back and the screen's fucked, so I have to find a way to get a new one. :/ but atm I've got another shit phone as a substitute

Useless useless useless can't do anything right. xo

IDGI

2008-06-17T14:22:50Z

WHY DOES EVERYTHING NOT WORK FOR ME :(

i really need money. i wish i hadn't spent it. but i REALLY wanted that skirt.
dayummmm

and oh now i've got another interview on saturday for spurs, and its at 10.20 so i'm gonna have to like run back and the trains are always at 10 and half 10 so i'll be wandering round for like half hour
FUCKIN HELL

;_;

itsamybtw @ 2008-06-15T11:59:00

2008-06-15T10:59:47Z

Tip of the day; get enough sleep.

Listening to Pretty. Odd.

Lazy day in I believe? I need to tidy my room.

:)

2008-06-14T12:41:02Z

Hello!

Last night was quite funny really. It was Jayden's leaving gathering and I really don't want him to leave :( he leaves within the next week, :(

Anyway, we went to the mead and police arrived and pretended they searched people so they'd get paid, way to go police :) me Rach and Laurie all just took the piss out of everyone, as per usual. Then we all went to the baseball courts and we got really worried cause we couldn't find Laurie, and I had no idea where she would be and we hoped she was with Chaz but she wasn't :S and everyone kept telling us she'd turn up so I assumed she would, but she didn't :|. After that the night was pretty funny, I've got bruises all up my legs cause Rach was teaching us pole dancing and then we stole Jack's phone because he had pictures of his willy on there, and we just legged it. I've never ran so fast in my life! <3 And then he tackled me and I've got a big bruise on my bum :D and then we kept meaning to leave but we couldn't be bothered, but I had a Job Interview today so I really had to, but oh well. So we just sat around a bit and I sat with Jayden and everything was wonderfullllllll. And then Ciara wanted to go but disappeared so we were like fine and just stayed for longer. And then when we did eventually go home Jack/James/Patrick walked us back and then Me/Rach/Chaz/Rhys were chased from Delamare rd. back home. Brilliant.

Then I had to get up early this morning to go for a job interview, I misjudged the amount of time it would take me to get to Theobalds and had to rush. Me and Jason got there and we had our interviews early because nobody else was there, and I got put on the 'yes' pile for another interview ^.^ But apparently the fact I'm not 16 until the 8th august is apparently a slight problem, but he said 'but I like you so I don't want to say no' which MUST be a good thing?

Went shopping in Harlow and got a new dress and shit. SAFE :)

CU!